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Saturday, February 24, 2024

2-24-2018  For the Love of God


I’ve addressed the question before “Really, Who is God?” and, at that time, I shared three main spiritual events in my life.  I talked about how these experiences impacted my life but I didn’t really talk about how they came into being.  And that’s what I want to talk about today.  These, and all the other things I have experienced in my Life wouldn’t have happened if it weren’t for the LOVE GOD has for me.”

Communication with Father (or anyone else, is a two way street.  So is God’s love – He communicates with us, then we need to communicate with Him.  Communicate = talking.

First, God so loved me that He gave His only begotten Son that should I accept His Son (Jesus) into my life and through my commitment to Him, I would enjoy eternal fellowship with the Father through the Son forever (John 3:16).

Second, I discover that if I love God I will live according to what Jesus said because it is a demonstration of my love for Him.  Jesus said “If you love Me, keep My commandments (John 15:10-12).  His commandments are actually a single commandment – to Love.  But love moves in two directions – up and outward. God’s concept of love is to truly care about Father (the great I am), who He is and just what does He mean to me, then to care about those around me.  

Truly caring about our relationships is LOVE!    

Thirdly, God’s ultimate desire for me to have a relationship with Him through my love for Him (He loved me first).

What I want you to take away from this is about how Father loves me and then how I can return that love to him.  And, keep in mind, this isn’t just about me, it’s also about you.

Jesus says that whatever you’ve done to the least unto those in My kingdom, you’ve done unto me (Matt. 25:31-46).  He watches over us and stands beside us when we n need His help.  He is the first of many brothers of those who seek the Lord (Rom. 8:29).  Jesus IS our ‘big’ brother! 

Basically, I grew up in a Southern Baptist Church.  In my youth, I faithfully attended Sunday School and, as a group, the boys in my class and I attended services afterward.  After High School, I drifted away from attending church on a regular basis.  Several years later, I met the woman I wanted as my wife, who was also Southern Baptist, so we went to my old church to see if the pastor would perform the ceremony.  There was a new pastor (less than a year, I think) and he agreed to do our ceremony but he required one condition – that for the marriage to succeed, Jesus must be involved in our lives.  He explained how things would work then he turned specifically to me.  He asked me if I knew Jesus as my personal Savior.  I replied that I attended Sunday School in my youth.  “That’s not what I asked you” he said.  I responded to his next question with “I’ve never done anything really bad and try to treat people nice.”  Again, he said “that’s not what I asked you.  We exchanged thoughts then He asked me one final time “Have you ever received Jesus into your heart?”  At that moment, I felt a tugging deep down inside and admitted “No” and then the pastor asked me if I would invite Him into my life.    I said “Yes.”  Iprayed to let Jesus into my heart and immediately I felt a huge, very heavy burden literally lifting up off my being.  In reflection, at the moment I realized that, that was when, Jesus had become my big brother!  God, the Father, was now with me and in me!

While I was yet a sinner Christ died for me (Rom. 5:8).  I had the ‘audacity’ to ask Him into my life and, in spite of who I was.  He did not refuse.

Again, at that moment, I knew that while yet a sinner, Jesus had exchanged His life for mine 2000 years ago.  Also, in reflection, I’ve come to realize that was just the first step.  I’ve spent all my life learning, continually, how to walk more closely with my Lord.  Over the years, I’ve learned the depth of what ‘keeping His commandments means and, more so, what giving my love to Him truly means.

When I confess and repent my sins, He is faithful to forgive and forget them (Rom. 10:9, 1 John 1:9, Isaiah 38:17, Micah 7:19).

As I’ve lived my life, too many times I’ve fallen short of Father’s expectations for me and time and again, I’ve had to repent things which I have done.  It took years for Father to finally get into my thick skull to take care of business up front and not to put things off.  As with King David, when the prophet Nathan reminded him of the sin he had committed with Bathsheba which resulted in a little baby who died.  Through Nathan’s confrontation, David repented because he had come to realize what he had done (2 Sam. 12:1-18).  Father has impressed upon me that when I’ve “messed up”, as soon as I realize what I have done – that is the time to repent, not days, weeks, months, etc. later.    That is admit my guilt, confess my sin and turn away from it.  God forgets our sins (Micah 7:19, Isa. 38:17) and so should we.

Should I sin (after salvation) I do have an advocate with Father as long as I repent (1 John 2:1).

What more can be said here?  I remember, as I truly confess my sin, God puts that repented sin behind His back and it slides into the sea and is forgotten (thank you for the reminder  Micah and Isaiah?

Father loves me and I do my best to show my love for Him.  Let me share a couple of situations where God has shown His love for me.  Now, grant it, other people may have experiences more dramatic or traumatic than my situations, but these are a couple of mine.

Baltimore/Washington Parkway connects Baltimore Md. With Washington DC (no brainer).  My home was just a few miles outside the DC line and my sister was about fifteen miles closer to Baltimore.  The Parkway was the quickest route between the two points.  When I was in my early twenties, I rode a Triumph 250cc dirt bike.  I was coming from my sister’s, on the parkway and about a mile from my exit was a ninety degree turn in the road (OK, about 90 degrees), in the direction I was headed.  I was coming out the back side of that curve and as soon I had a clear view of the traffic ahead, it was stopped – dead!  The speed limit was 65 mph then and the closest car to me was maybe thirty yards.  I thought to myself ‘hit the brakes and lay the bike down.  Minimum damage I get severe road burn but I should live, maximum damage I slide under the car in front of me and suffer greater damage to myself as well as the bike.  Then I heard a small voice ‘get off the throttle and steer onto the shoulder’.  It was a gravel shoulder, but I did it.  I was able to safely slow the bike down to a controllable speed and safely survived what could have been one very nasty incident.  The Holy Ghost gave me direction.  God was watching out for me!  And, yet, at that time, I had not yet given my life to Him so I wasn’t appreciative as I should (or could) have been.  I didn’t even really know Him then.  If that isn’t love?  Not me!  The Lord!

The other experience I’d like to share was on my job.  Except, for a little under two years, I was a ‘federal’ employee ‘lifer’.  I worked for the US government, CIA, GSA and FDA.  Yup, that’s the Central Intelligence Agency, the General Services Administration and I retired from the Food and Drug Administration.  While at FDA, about five years after I had given my life to Him, I experienced God’s love for me, in my  finances.  I was a documents clerk with the FDA for the Center for Drug Evaluation and Research (CDER) specifically Office of Generic Drugs (OGD), under CDER, all under FDA).  I received, and coded documents then forwarded them for drug approval and resourced them to the appropriate discipline reviewers, aka chemist, medical doctors, pharmacologist, etc.  Not all the drug companies followed standard procedures by declaring what issues the document was addressing, fortunately they did file it to the appropriate drug application.  I processed various types of documents which would pertain to formula changes, packaging changes, expiration date extensions, manufacturing changes, quantity changes and the like and of course they all submitted an annual report reflecting all of the year’s activity for that application.  One day, I sat at my desk grumbling (to myself) about processing ‘easier’ documents versus more involved documents.  Annual reports were the easiest and it was a pain (oft times) trying to figure out just what the companies were doing with other documents.  While I sat grumbling, I heard a small voice say  “Give Me the job.”  I looked up and around then said “OK, it’ Yours.”  I knew Jesus by this time.  I believe, at that time, I was a GS4 but I might have recently been promoted to GS5, the ceiling of the pay scale for my position.  About two years later, we were told that our position was being upgraded to a GS7.  Still working within OGD.  Several years later, my supervisors told me a position was opening up as a contract Liaison which would go to a GS9.  CDER had sixteen review divisions (each dealing with a different drug type, heart, lung, kidneys, etc.) The liaison position meant that I would be training contractor staff to do the same job I had been doing (for about ten years) and I would also be dealing (as a liaison) with issues between the contractor and the government, as well as writing procedures for the contractor and explaining the impact for both contract and government staff.  After a few years, my GS9, then the top level of my position, was also upgraded to a GS11.  After a while, I was told that one of my co-workers would soon be retiring and my supervisors wanted me to replace him.  He retired and I did take his position which was a  GS12 slot and that’s the position from which I retired.  Generally, GS 10 and above positions, in the government, required college education.  I thanked God for giving me the ingenuity and the availability to attain that GS12 with only a high school diploma.  Father showed His love towards me through my paycheck. 

Other situations showing God’s love for me and how He protected me would be reflected in the near accident when I first bought that Triumph 250, or on the roof of the hotel in Saigon or when, the day before one of my coworkers and I were scheduled to check out of country (Vietnam) and catch a plane back to good ole USA  and during which we encountered a helicopter ride to the middle of nowhere, yet, we did make our flight the next morning. 

Over the years, I have always given ‘something back to God, but I haven’t always been a ‘tither’. Later in my life I have made sure Father has that which is holy to Him (Lev. 27:30).  And even through my failings in those years, Father has always given me direction and made sure I always had what I needed to meet my needs.  Yes, there were lessons in the process, but Father kept showing His love for me.

Over the years, He has continually grown me in knowledge of the bible AND drawn me into a closer relationship with Him. 

Has Father blessed me?  Definitely!  Has He shown His love towards me?  How can I count the all the blessings and situations He has pulled me through?

I can never, ever, fully repay Father for what He has done for me, but I do my best by learning what He has taught me and doing my best to be faithful and obedient in His will.  I give Him praise and glory by singing songs back to Him, which He has given me as well as singing along with recordings from professional artists.  I enjoy singing those songs for as I do, I feel His presence in my life.  Some songs, He has given me, even reflect those ‘physical’ feelings I have when I am in His presence.

I may not be like Daniel, who prayed every morning, noon and night but I do set a significant amount of time each day to spend with my Lord.  I like to know what Father and I talk about, but He has also impressed upon me that there are times I just can’t express myself in the way He likes, so yes, I also pray in the Spirit, that is the heavenly language Father has given me,  tongues (1 Corinth. 14:13-15, 39-40).

What I do doesn’t compare to what He has done for me, but I am still trying.  Before Father took her home, I used to tell my wife that “I was trying”.  She would look at me, get a slight smile upon her lips and say “Yes, I know.  Very.”  How often must Father look at me with that similar, subtle smile?  I thank God that He loves me.

I love the Lord with all my heart and He has shown me, over the years how He loves me.  Without going into greater detail, what more can I say?

Father does things for us and all too often we are not even aware of His presence or even consider His involvement in what happens in our lives.  Sooooo

Now, how about you?


Saturday, February 10, 2024

            2-10-2024        Unity of and with God


This Tuesday AM, I was still pondering what to put in the blog and Father said “try this for size”:

Over the years, Father has shown me the unity of the Godhead and recently He has shared a couple of eye-openers (at least for me).

In the Book of Deuteronomy chapter 32, Moses explains to Israel that God is their “Rock” (more specifically Deut. 32:15).  Jesus is the “rock” in the New Testament (1 Corinth. 19:1-5).  Do we see a connection?  Is there a unity here?

Now, in Exodus, in reference to bring Israel out of Egypt, Moses asks God “Whom shall I say has sent me?”  And God responds “I AM that I AM.  Tell them that I AM has sent you.”  In the Book of Revelation, John, while on the island of Patmos and ‘in the Spirit’, hears a voice and turns to see one like the Son of man in the midst of seven candlesticks.  His hair was white, like wool or snow, His feet were like brass and His eyes like the flame of a fire.  So, what caused John to turn and look?  The voice said “I AM Alpha and Omega, the first and the last ….” (Rev. 1:10-16).  Hmmm.  Are both Father AND Jesus claiming to be I AM?  Are there two I AMs?  Or just one?

Father reminded me that the fullness of the Godhead dwells in Jesus (Col. 2:9-10).

He also reminded me that in the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God and the Word was God (John 1:1).  And the Word was made flesh and lived in our midst, the only begotten of the Father (John 1:12-14).  Here’s a unity, a oneness, that’s hard to overlook.  And yes, Luke says that Jesus is the ‘supposed’ son of Joseph (who through many generations) was the son of Adam who is the son of God (Luke 3:38).  Consider that Adam was not ‘begotten’ of the Father, but God created by Him.  Jesus was ‘begotten’ through a human (Mary Matt. 1:22-25, Luke 1:28-35, 38) with no ‘human’ Father.  The angel told Mary that the Holy Ghost would come upon her.

Biblical situations declaring that both Father and Jesus (Son) ae indicated as thee ‘Rock’ and ‘I AM’. 

Now, not in the scriptures, but on a personal note.  Over time, I asked Father about His unity, more than once.  From ‘man’ I have heard ‘three persons but one in nature’, implying that there are three Gods, but all three are one, that is the same in thought.  But my response (to myself) was that, then, makes us polytheistic, not monotheistic.  Poly meaning more than one and mono meaning, literally one. 

So Father told me this (you can believe this if you want, the choice is yours) that He is Spirit and we must worship Him in Spirit and truth (John 4:24).  Then consider that when He created all that is, He spoke it into existence (Gen. 1:1-31).  The words ‘God said’ appear nine times in Genesis chapter one.  In case you are wondering, according to biblical numbers, nine means God’s completeness.  So God ‘said’ and it was so. 

So what did God say?  No, not the “let there be”, but what do these letters spell?  Words!  God spoke Words to create all that is.  Who is the lving Word of God?  Jesus (John 1:14).

Okay, how did those words ‘go forth’?  What does Genesis say? “… The Spirit of God moved upon the face of the waters.”  What is the ‘Spirit’ God?  The Hebrew word here is ruwach (H7307) which is translated ‘ breath’. 

So, in creating all that is, God (the essence) spoke (Words) and His Spirit (breath) carried those words into action, creating whatever God spoke!

Father has given us a similar capacity.  When we speak, what happens?  We (our essence) says something (our words) and then our breath carries those words into the world by ‘shifting the atmosphere’ around us.  Shifting?  Shifting?  What do I mean by shifting?  Our breath stimulates the air around us and the sound of our voice carries for a distance.  How loud we speak determines how far our words travel.  When you are within my range (here’s science) those air waves, (which carry my voice) stimulates the ear drum, anvil and stirrup in your ear so you can hear what I say.  As long as we speak the same language, then, you can understand what I have just said.  Get the idea? 

Essence, words, breath – Father, Son and Holy Ghost (Spirit), then body soul and spirit (us).

God is a three part entity and so are we!  We are made in God’s image? 

Made in God’s image can involve several aspects.  One, as a three part being as just cited.  Two, does God have a head, arms, legs, feet and hands like we do?  Jesus did.  He was born into humanity.  God sent His Son, made (born) of a woman, under the Law to redeem us so that we might also become sons so that we might also declare God as Abba (Father) (Gal. 4:4-6).  And Three – love.  God is love (1 John 4:8).  God loves us so much, He has given us the capacity to love Him in return (1 John 4:10).  So if God loves us so much shouldn’t we love Him with the same fervor and one another in the same capacity (1 John 4:11)?  What did Jesus tell us was the greatest commandment?  Love the Lord our God with all our heart, mind, soul and strength which is the first commandment (Mark 12:29-30) and the second is to love our neighbor as ourselves.  There is no greater commandment than to love (Mark 12:31).  Why?  Because the Law and the prophets hang (rely, support, based on) these commandments of love (Matt. 22:40).

So, we‘ve seen the unity of the Godhead AND the relationship to us.  Yes?

Father gives us the promise of everlasting life with Him (John 3:16) when we accept that final blood sacrifice Jesus gave for us.  Scripture tells us that Father is not really impressed with the offering and sacrifice of animals, but Jesus has come to offer Himself, once and for all, taking our sin upon Himself (1 Peter 2:24) and is now sat down (or is standing) at the right hand of God (Heb. 10:1-12). 

Think about this.  My son, my only son, is the true banner carrier of my (surname – last) name.  Yes I have an uncle, who also has a son and I don’t know how many uncles and cousins beyond that, but my son carriers that banner for this part of the family.  My son carries my genes (as well as his mother’s) and he has passed that on to his sons (yes plural).  My son was not created but born through the union between my wife and myself.  As I said, he carries my side of the ‘family tradition’. 

In the beginning, there was nothing through which God could work –.  No sky, no air, no water, to dirt, no nothing!  He spoke it all into existence.  Then, Adam was created from the dust of the earth (Gen. 2:19).  Jesus was born with the union of (wo)man, not with a man (male) but by the  Father through the Holy Ghost (Luke 1:35).  Now, remember how God created all things!  He spoke all things into existence.  Father spoke, the Holy Ghost carried His Word and Mary brought forth Jesus (again Luke 1:35).

One last passage here.  Look at Jesus’ words “Neither do I pray for these alone but those who believe on Me through their word.  that they may be one, Father, as You are in Me and I in You that they also may be one with us, that the world may believe You have sent Me.  The glory You have given Me, I have given them that they may be one as We are one.  I in them, You in Me that they may be made perfect in one and that the world will know that You have sent Me and have loved them as You have loved Me. (John 17:20-23).

Through our ‘salvation’, we are adopted into the family of God and Jesus is our big brother (Eph. 1:4-5), but is He ‘just’ our big brother?  Of course not.  We have obtained our eternal existence through Him and His sacrifice of love He showed towards us. 

Hopefully, we have seen the unity of the Godhead, Father, Son and Holy Ghost.  God, the Father, is ONE God and through His love for us, He desires us to become one with Him, through Jesus (His only begotten son).  That is one with the Creator of all things.


Saturday, January 13, 2024

1-13-2024   Do we really know what we see or hear?


Matt. 13:1-10 (Parable of the sower).  Jesus relates the reality of how God’s Word is ministered.  The sower sows seed upon the ground, some fall by the wayside, some among the thorns, some among the stones and finally some upon good soil.  The Israelites were mostly farmers so they understood what would happen to seed under each of these conditions, not grow at all, grow but eventually wilt or produce good fruit.

Matt. 13:11-23 (what it really says).  Then, Jesus explains to His disciples how this applies to us spiritually.  Where there is no solid foundation and/or no proper nurturing, our spiritual seed fades off into the sunset.  But, as we are nurtured (reading God’s Word and receiving input from other resources which declare God’s love, we grow and become the person God has intended.

1 Corinth. 2:1-16 (power of knowing)

When we read a passage in the bible, do we read only the words presented in the text, or in a specific passage then go with what ‘our’ own understanding of what that word means? 

We, generally gain our knowledge of the bible by what our pastor says, what tele-evangelists or other noted preachers say or maybe even from people around us.  Yet, if you haven’t discovered it, there is a fourth source we should consider.  The Holy Ghost!  The Holy Ghost will lead us into all truth (John 14:16-17 and understanding (1 Corinth. 2:7-16). 

When we hear a word from or by another person, do we accept it as gospel without question?

Even Satan, or his emissaries, can appear as an angel of light, thus they may be ministers who can be deceiving (2 Corinth. 11:14-15).  It can look good, sound good but does it stop halfway through the truth?  We need to weigh what we hear against the Word of God as led by the Holy Ghost.  Is it in agreement with God’s being – love?  Satan tried to deceive even Jesus in the wilderness.  Turn stones into bread, jump, the angels will catch you and ‘I’ll give you all this, just bow down and worship me (Mat. 4:1-11).  Jesus put Satan in his place by presenting the full and complete truth of God – man does not live by bread alone but every word that proceeds from the mouth of God, don’t tempt God and worship God and serve only Him.

I use Strong’s ‘Exhaustive Concordance’ to look up the meaning of words used in both the old and new testaments.  I find this a huge help in understanding the bible.  With Strong’s, I can not only look up what a word ‘means’ but can then check out associated root word to discover the deeper understanding of what that word involves.  Then I ask the Holy Ghost to help me understand what I need to know.  I’ve also discovered that the NIV version of a particular reference may not be the same reference numbers as the King James.  However, if one checks it out, the reference numbers may differ but the word and meaning are the same.

What am I talking about?  Let’s take a look at Paul’s letter to the Corinthians.

Paul came to the Corinthians in humility proclaiming only Jesus (1 Corinth. 2:1-3). 

He didn’t come to impress people with big, flowery words but to show the power of the Spirit of God so that their faith would be rooted in the power of God (1 Corinth. 2:4-5).

Paul declares that he doesn’t speak with the wisdom of this world or of men of authority which comes to nothing, but the wisdom of God which is a mystery which God has hidden from before the world (was made) (1 Corinth. 2:6-7).  And God’s word lasts forever (Matt, 24:34-35).

Had the authorities known and recognized the truth, they wouldn’t have crucified the Lord of Glory (1 Corinth. 2:8).

It is written ‘eye has not seen, nor ear heard, nor has it entered into the heart of man the things which God has prepared for those who love Him (1 Corinth. 2:9).

But God has revealed these things to us by His Spirit, because the Spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God (1 Corinth. 2:10). 

The only way we know the things concerning man is because we have the spirit of man which resides in us.  Likewise, no man knows the things of God except by the Spirit of God (1 Corinth. 2:11).  And yet, man keeps trying to explain God using man’s own wisdom.

Now, we have not received the spirit of the world, but the Spirit which comes from God that we may freely know the things given to us by God (1 Corinth. 2:12).

So we don’t speak the words which the wisdom of man teaches but that which the Holy Ghost teaches for He compares spiritual things with Spiritual things (1 Corinth. 2:13).  In other words, the Holy Ghost (as Jesus) teaches by sharing with us what Father has given Him (John 12:49-50) and He then has passed on to us.

The natural man cannot receive the things from the Spirit of God because they are foolishness to him nor can he understand them for they are Spiritually discerned (1 Corinth. 2:14).  Restated, because we don’t understand what God says, we have the tendency to dismiss it and wind up leaning on our own understanding.

But, he who is spiritual judges all things but is judged by no man (1 Corinth. 2:15).    

For who has known the mind of God that we may teach Him?  Yet, we have the mind of Christ (1 Corinth. 2:16)!  Through Jesus, we can know what God thinks about things.  But then, we have to know God.

And as in the gospel of John, the mind of Christ is submission to the Father.

So what does this actually mean?  If we truly want to get to know God, we have to meet Him on His terms, not our own.  And to understand God’s terms, we need to read material reflecting God’s love as we ask Father to give us understanding.  As I said earlier, the Holy Ghost will teach us.  We just have to ask, then listen.  When we are on the right track, the Holy Ghost will confirm what we have learned within our own heart.  OR, He may show us the reality of what He’s teaching us in the things around us.  As an example:  in Sept. 2014, Father gave me what He called the ‘Prophecy of the Watchman’.  I thought about and eventually I asked “Is this really for me?”  Father spent the next three months exposing me to what various preachers were saying.  I even went to a prophetic conference in which there were not one but three prophetic preachers.  Occasionally I felt the ‘urge’ to turn on one (any) of the tele-evangelists.  And even my pastor.  I suffered through three months waiting for God to have someone say me “Buck, Father told me to tell you …”  That didn’t happen so in January 2015 I approached Father again “Lord, I thought you were going to confirm what you told me last Sept.?”  Father’s response “All these people I’ve set before you, what were they talking about?”  I sat and thought for a minute “Uh, what you told me in the Watchman?”  I could almost feel Father looking down at me, I could almost feel a subtle little smile parting His lips, the He said “How much confirmation do you need?!”  Between my pastor, the conference I attended and maybe a half dozen or so preachers on TV and otherwise, Father was confirming what He had told me.   We have to seek Father, listen to Him.  Then do what He says!  Amen?

Did I learn my lesson?  Not completely.  For the last several years, the blog Father had me start in 2015, has been very pointed on what Father wants said – getting His church back on the right track.  So, what have I been saying since then?  “Father, I understand what we are doing with the blog, but You have said that there is more to come.”  At first, Father said “Later” but more recently, He has changed that to “soon”.  I’m waiting to see when what He has shown me unfolds.

Father is God Almighty, I AM that I AM, whose essence and being is love.  Father manifested that love to us 2000 years ago when Jesus became that manifestation of that love and walked among us, giving us the example Father desires us to follow.  Jesus sanctifies us through God’s truth that we may be one with Him as He is with Father and that we all may be one (John 17:19-23).  Get the picture?    

Do we want to know the truth about what we see and hear?  The truth flows out from God.  We have to know who God is before we can hear Him.  The bible is our initial source for learning who God is, but then we need to listen to God for confirmation of that truth.  Samuel learned to hear from God through instruction form his mentor Eli.  Samuel heard a voice, thinking it must have been Eli, he ran to his mentor.  Three times Eli sent the boy back to his bed, but finally Eli got the message and told Samuel how to respond.  The fourth time Samuel heard the voice he said “Speak, your servant hears” 1 Sam. 3:3-10). 

Father will also use things around us to speak to us.  One morning in my prayer session with the Lord, He drew my attention so some black birds in the yard across the street.  The ground had not yet completely thawed and the birds were pecking to get what they could find.  Father said “My children are searching for food, feed them.”

Our relationship with Father grows through reading the bible and our prayer time with Him (not to exclude other viable resources).  He uses nature and the things around us to get our attention and hen explains why He has done this.  Are we listening?  

So, when we receive input into our lives (from any media), do we weigh it with God’s love?  Or do we just accept it as said?

To know God’s voice we have to first know Him.  Then we need to weigh whatever we see or hear against His love and the Holy Spirit will confirm in our heart what is right.

Hopefully, we have learned how to recognize what Father is saying to us.


Saturday, December 30, 2023


12-30-2023         What is love?  Again

Almost a year ago I posted “What is Love” (1/14/2023).  I’d like to revisit this post, perhaps even with a few adjustments.

1 John 4:8b      GOD IS LOVE!

Since 9/24-2022, we’ve been talking about who God is, which, of course, is  love.  The unity of the Godhead, Father, Son & Holy Ghost.  That fact that we desire eternal fellowship with the Father.  Through Jesus Christ, we seek ‘salvation’ and once we’ve given our hearts to Him, we learn what God expects from us.  And, of course, a seventh item of ‘how the church could and should grow.  It is ALL based in love.  God’s love.  If you will – ‘agape love’.  That unconditional love that seeks and does that which edifies others.

In the last entry of 2022 (12/31/2022), ‘A New Year’, we closed saying that this love has to begin at home - With us.  And it does!  But love truly begins with Father, YAWEH, Jehovah, the eternal I AM who sheds His love into our lives and hearts.     

Again, this year, I say ‘let’s make it personal’.  Let each one of us say “with ME”.

God is love.  Because we confess God with all our heart and through our spirit, we are able to reflect God’s love.  That is, through the Holy Ghost in us (John 20:22-23, Acts 1:8).   John tells us that if we don’t know God we can’t love with God’s love, but because we do know Him, through His Spirit in us, we can truly love (1 John 4:4-12).    

The closer we walk with the Lord, the more His love will shine in and through our lives because we are seeking to do His will and to please Him.  This doesn’t mean we hide out in our closets and just feel good as we bask in His presence.  We can do that, but Father wants us to also extend that love and good will towards those who are close to us, around us and then to those whom we encounter.  after all, Jesus did say that the Holy Ghost gives us power and the ability to be witnesses for Him and to take His Word to the uttermost parts of the earth (Matt. 28:18-20, Acts 1:7-8).  We do have to get up off our duffs and do something!  Faith without works is dead (James 2;14-26).  Yes? 

Love.  I’m not talking about a ‘pasted on smile’, but having a genuine concern and compassion for other people.  Truly caring about them and, whatever even small part, we may have in edifying them, so that they may become ‘better’ people, walking closer with the Lord.

Do we fall all over people trying to please them?  Of course not.  We have to understand and be confident in our own relationship with the Lord, then learn where our talents and gifts are so we can interact with others appropriately.  We need to understand the depth and breadth of the gifts Father has blessed us with and in which level are we currently operating.  Yes, we can do all things through Jesus Christ (Phil. 4:13), but also we need to also consider the two previous verses in that passage, “I don’t speak out of my need for I have learned to be content in whatever state I find myself (says Paul).  I know how to live with little and I know how to live when having more than enough.  I know hunger and how to be full.  I know how to live having plenty or to be in need” (Phil. 4:11-12).  Whatever our state, we don’t brag or complain but we can be content knowing that God is always with us and with His guidance, we can deal appropriately with that which comes before us.  God is always with us (Heb. 13:5)!  The Holy Ghost will let us know how far to go in a given situation (Luke 12:11-12). 

God is my shepherd!  He satisfies my needs and gives me rest.  He refreshes me as He guides my steps down His pathways (of course, I have to listen to His direction).  Though trouble may be all around me, I will not be fearful for my God comforts me.  He gives me peace in my troubles.  He anoints my head with oil and blesses me.  He prepares my table before those who don’t like me.  I know His goodness and mercies are with me no matter what I do or wherever I go.  I will follow His direction, always, with all my heart, mind, soul and strength (Psalms 23, Mark 12:28-34).  God will bless us as we are obedient in His love (Deut. 28:1-14, 30:16-20).

I know who I am in Christ Jesus so I am not overbearing towards others, but neither am I a doormat.  I follow Jesus’ example of love.  Jesus is the true example of being assertive.  So, as with Jesus, I am tender with those who truly seek Jesus (Matt. 9:20-29) but carry a sharp, two-edged sword for those who truly defy Him (Matt. 23:23-28). 

Living in God’s love is the key to our success in this world.  Living in His love means being obedient to what He tells us and then treating others as Father treats us – in His abiding and caring love.

Yes, He reprimands us when we get off track but that reprimand brings us back into proper alignment in His will.  As our heart lines up with Father’s will, that’s when He will give us our heart’s desire (Psalm 37:4, Matt. 6:31-34).

Jesus tells us that love fulfills the law and the prophets (Matt. 22:36-40).  Starting with the Ten Commandments (Exod. 20:3-17), God describes His love towards us.  Then, through the actions of forty-two prophets mentioned in the bible (not all have their own book), how He guides and directs us, provides for us, saves us from peril and even reprimands us when we get off track.  He loves us when we abide in HJIs will – and even when we don’t.  Even in that final separation, God never stops loving us.  However, depending on how we love, too many will not enjoy His fellowship throughout eternity.  The gate to eternal life is straight and narrow (Matt. 7:13-14) even though Father desires that none perish (2 Peter 3:9), nota all will enter in.     

From Genesis through Revelation we get a pretty good picture of how God’s love works.  Yet, understand, no matter how much bible we know, Father has still not shown us all about His love.  personally, every time I read a given passage in the bible, Father shows me something deeper. 

Remember, even before THE birth of Jesus, the angel of the Lord came to Joseph and said that the child should also be called Emmanuelle (God is with us – Matt. 1:23) and He is the Word (Jesus).  So, in the beginning, was the Word, the Word was with God and the Word was God (John 1:1).  God, the Father, came into this world, Himself, in the person of Jesus, to redeem us from our sins and reconnect us back with Himself – forever (John 3:16). 

There is no greater love that one can demonstrate towards another than to give his life for him (15:13).  Yes, there have been martyrs for God over the ages and we are appointed to die once, the natural death (Heb. 9:27), thank you Adam and Eve (Gen. 2:17).  Yet, we all don’t die for Jesus, literally (in the flesh).  Once we’ve accepted Him into our heart, we do crucify the old man and allow the new man (now in us) to live for Him (Rom. 6:6-9).  If you will, the old man dies in Christ and the new man lives in God’s love, in this life and he next. 

Be aware that there are basically five types of love.

Agape (Gr 26) or dowd (Heb 1730) love is having affection or benevolence towards another, considering their well-being.

Philoteknos (Gr 5388) is the type of love we have for our children, eg. “a mother’s love”.

Philandros (Gr 5362) or ahab (Heb 157) is the type of love a husband and wife share.

Philadelphia (Gr 5360) is a brotherly love.

Phileo (G5368) having sentiment towards another person or even a ‘thing’.  (Look at that poor doggie.  He’s hurt.)

Now, I don’t mention eros (also from the Greek).  This coincides with plhilandros but is not specifically mentioned in the bible.  We may get an insight by reading the “Song of Soslomon” in the Old Testament.

So what is love?  Jesus tells us that when we do something to/for any of His brothers, we’ve done it unto Him (Matt. 25:40).  We receive Jesus into our heart allowing His love to abide in our heart and allowing Him to work in us and through us via our speech and our actions.  Again, faith without works doesn’t amount to much.  Yet, all this is possible because the Holy Ghost has taken up residence within our heart and enables us to love our fellow man as Jesus loves us.  We don’t ‘get saved’ because we do works but rather our being saved produces God’s works in us and through us. Thus, we return our love to Jesus by expressing that love for others.  Caring about their well-being. 

 Truly loving because the Creator has first loved us.


Saturday, December 16, 2023

12-16-2023         I AM


Moses asked God “whom shall I tell them sent me?”  And God replied “I AM that I AM, tell them that I AM sent you” (Exod. 3:13-14).

I AM the first and the last, and there is no other god beside Me.” (Isa. 44:6) 

John was on the isle of Patmos when he received his revelation.  “I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the ending” (Rev. 1:8), “I AM ‘Alpha and Omega, the first and the last …” (Rev. 1:11).  And who was speaking to John?  In the midst of seven golden candlesticks was one like unto the Son of man.  He wore a garment down to His feet with a golden girdle.  His hair was white as wool, as white as snow and His eyes were like the flame of a fire.  His feet were like finely polished brass out of the furnace and His voice was like many waters.  He held seven stars in His right hand, a two-edged sword proceeded from His mouth and His countenance was like the sun at it brightest (Rev. 1:12-16, Ezek. 1:25-28, 43:2).  Who is the ‘living Word of God’ (John 1:1, 6:51) and the Word of God is a two-edged sword (Heb. 4:12)!  Does this description suggest anyone in particular?

The Word of God is a two-edged sword (Heb. 4:12).  Daniel had been fasting for three weeks when he saw:  a man clothed in linen girded with gold.  His body was like beryl and His face appeared as lightening, His eyes were like fire and His feet like polished brass and His voice was like a multitude (Dan. 10:2-6).  How about now?

In the beginning was the Word and the Word was with God and the Word was God (John 1:1).  Jesus desires us to be one with Him as He is one with the Father (John 17:1-21).

We are adopted into God’s family through Jesus (Eph. 1:5, 2:19, Rom. 8:15-16).  We are joint heirs in Christ Jesus (Rom. 8:17)!

Jesus was born of a virgin so when we cry to God “You just don’t understand!”  God does!  Jesus was born of a young, virgin, Jewish girl.  Why a Jewish girl?  Because God selected the Jews to be His ‘chosen people’ (Deut. 7:6, Isa. 44:1).  Chosen is the Hebrew word bachar (H977) which means selected.  They were to be His beacon, an example to the sinful world.  And God gave His Law to the Jews (Ezek. 26:21-26, Heb. 8:10-11).

Okay, so why a ‘virgin’ woman?  The woman could not have had sexual relations with a man, otherwise people would say that Jesus was ‘just another man’, He would have had an earthly father.  No doubt Jesus is the ‘son of man (born of a woman) (Acts 7:56, Heb. 2:6, Rev. 1:13) but to be the ‘Son of God’?  He had to be conceived in a supernatural way, the Holy Ghost (Luke 1:35).  Father confirmed His Sonship (Matt. 3:16-17).  Born of woman to show that man can keep God’s law in a sinful world but born again (John 1:3-6), from above (the Holy Ghost) demonstrating that our power to live for God, comes from God (Acts 1:4-8). 

Born again, born of the Spirit.  Being born of a man and living as a man Jesus prepared Himself to be our final, blood sacrifice, cleansing us from our sin.  And, yes, He died on the cross (Matt. 27:33-60) and praise God, He rose from the grave on the third day (John 20:1-13), victorious over sin and death, showing us what we also can do and should expect (1 Corinth. 15:55-58).  And, praise God, Jesus didn’t stop there.  He ascended back into heaven to make sure there was a place for us (John 14:1-4) so we could be with Him forever!                            

So, just what else does God do for us?

In the beginning, Father establishes that there is no forgiveness of sin without the shedding of blood (Lev. 4:1-35).  Leviticus chapter four gives guidelines for what one must do to be cleansed from his sin.

Understand that when Adam and Eve sinned and God cast them out of the garden, Father also made them coat from animal skins (Gen. 3:21).  That means the blood of an animal was shed so He could cover man, covering his sin.  The procedure described in Leviticus chapter four tells us that the blood is the life (of the creature) and makes atonement for souls (Lev. 17:11).  For this reason Israel offered the blood of a bull, goat or lamb as a ‘sin’ sacrifice (Lev. 16:1-22).  Is not Jesus the Lamb of God (John 1:29)?  Jesus shed His blood for us through the scourging before the cross and then the piercing by the spear at His death upon the cross (John 19:1-3, 33-34).  The book of Hebrews reminds us that there is no forgiveness for sin without the shedding of blood (He. 9:22).

So Jesus becomes our final sacrifice for sin.  They took Him to Calvary (Golgotha) and crucified Him (Luke 23:33-43).   In His last hours, Jesus commended His Spirit to Father (Luke 23:46), there was darkness over all the earth for about three hours (Luke 23:44), the sun was darkened and the veil in the temple was torn (Luke 23:45).  The veil torn?  Why?  Consider that when the Jews came to the priest for forgiveness of sin,  only the priest could enter the Holy of Holies with an offering for the people’s sin (Lev. 16:1-34, Heb. 9:7).  The torn veil means that access to the Holy of Holies was no longer limited to the priest, concealed from man, but now through Jesus, we no longer have to go through the priest to access God, but as we are cleansed from our unrighteousness, iniquity and sin through Christ Jesus, we now have direct access to Father through Jesus!  the veil is gone!

Jesus washed us from our sin with His own blood (Rev. 1:5)!  No more animals, but He is the final sacrifice for our sin!

Praise God, Jesus didn’t stop there.  On the third day He arose from the grave (Matt. 28:1-6, Mark 16:1-6, Luke 24:1-8, John 20:1-8), walked with His disciples for forty more days teaching them more about the kingdom of God (Acts 1:2-3), and assuring us that we do, indeed, have eternal life in Him (1 John 4:10-13, 5:13).  What did Jesus explain?  More of living in God’s love through Jesus Christ, our Lord.  Jesus is coming back for us (John 14:1-3).

Cool! What else?

Jesus tells us that whatsoever we ask, in His name, He will do so Father will be glorified  (John 14:13-14).

Isaiah tells that through the scourging Jesus suffered, by His stripes, we are healed (Isa. 53:5).  

Jesus assures us that after He leaves (has left) the world, He gives us another comforter (the Holy Ghost), to be with us and to console us, (John 14:16-18).

This same Holy Ghost will guide us into all truth (John 16:13-15), give us wisdom and understanding (1 Corinth. 2:6-16).

Help us to speak what we need and when we need to know it (Mark 13:11). 

Jesus helps us to become one in Him, in the Father so that we all are one (John 17:15-23).   

Father supplies whatever we need out of His riches in glory (Phil. 4:19) and even, as we seek Him, will give us our heart’s desire (2 Peter 1:1-8)

What more could we need or want?

Did you notice the obligation?  “Seeking Him”.  So, just what obligations do we have?

To receive fully from Father we need to continually seek Him with all our heart, mind, soul and strength and to love our neighbor as ourselves (Mark 12:29-31).  So we abide in God’s love (John 15:9-12) we need to practice what we know and share it (preach) (James 2:26).

Why?  Because love is the foundation of His law, prophets and His commandments (Matt. 22:40).

The Ten Commandments are a brief explanation of God’ love (Exod. 20:3-17) and the full Law brings it into a deeper understanding.

And as the apostle Paul recommends that we ‘run the race’, in this life as though we expect to win (1 Corinth. 9:24).  That is with all our strength and energy.  Crossing the finish line first is not the goal for many have already crossed it, but we strive to cross that finish line – period - to have lived our lives fully in and through Christ Jesus, our Lord.  That is our victory in this world.

So, is God I AM?  Let each one of think and remember all that Father has done for us.  Has He provided nourishment when we were hungry (we’re still here, aren’t we?).  How many problems have we face and ‘suddenly’ the answer comes (with or without much deliberation)?  Through how many sad moments has He given us comfort and brought joy back into our hearts?  Father reminds Israel that it is He who brought them out of the bondage of Egypt (Micah 6:4).  How many times has He delivered us out of our bondage?

So, Is Father all that we need?  Is He Jehovah Jireh, our God who ‘sees to it’, our provider  (H3070)?  Because He is and does all this for us and more and all He asks from us is to put Him ‘numero uno’ (first)  in our lives. 

So, is He I AM?


Saturday, December 2, 2023

12-2-2023 Why am I Here?


Growing up, Jesus had favor before God and man (Prov. 3:3-4, Luke 2:52).  As He grew in the natural, He also grew in the Spirit, exampled when He wowed the doctors in the temple at age twelve (Luke 2:42-47).  They were amazed at the knowledge of this twelve-year old boy.

John the Baptist was preaching around the Jordan River. Having baptized many, he shared about the coming Messiah (Matt. 3:1-12).  Then Jesus approached and was baptized by John.  This was necessary for Jesus to fulfill all righteousness (Matt. 13-17).  At this time, Jesus was about thirty years old (Luke 3:23).

After His baptism, Jesus was then whisked away into the wilderness where He was confronted by the devil.  Luke says that Jesus was tempted during that period of time for all forty days (Luke 4:2) which culminated in (both Matthew and Luke) with the final temptations.  Satan tempted Jesus with “eat”, that is food for the body, “jump”, or do You truly trust God and finally, “bow down before me”, or “is Jesus truly dedicated to Father” (Matt. 4:1-11), body, soul and Spirit).  Obviously Jesus passed with flying colors: Man shall live by every word that proceeds from the mouth of God; don’t tempt the Lord God; we shall worship only God (Creator of all things) and serve only Him (Matt: 4:4, 7:10).

Jesus was then ready to minister to us and did so for over three years culminating in the crucifixion (Matt. 27:27-50), resurrection (Mark 16:1-18) and ascension (Acts 1:1-11). 

Paul declared himself to be a Pharisee and the son of a Pharisee (Acts 23:6).  Understand that a Pharisee, in Strongs’s Concordance, is pharisaios or separated one (G5330).  That means he was a part of the most influential religious-political party at that time.  Pharisees studied and interpreted the Law (Holman Illustrated Bible Dictionary).  Experts?

After holding the coats of those who stoned Stephen (Acts 7:57-60), Saul, a devout Pharisee, considered the “Christians’ to be a heresy so he persecuted them with all his energy and the church gave him the authority to pursue his desire (Acts 8:1-3).  But, as he was doing so, something happened!  He encountered Jesus as he proceeded to Damascus to carry out ‘his’ mission and he lost his sight, physically (Acts 9:1-7).  Ananias was in Damascus when God told him to go pray for one Saul for he was a chosen vessel to go to the Gentiles.  So, Saul was three days in Damascus when Ananias came to him to receive his sight.  We see that Saul has also been called Paul (Acts 13:9).  Paul then continued his mission to the Gentiles.  Interesting, Paul may have been about three years younger than Jesus.  According to, Paul’s encounter with the Lord was about three years after the crucifixion and resurrection of Jesus.  Side note:  whether we acknowledge Anno Diem (A.D.), ‘the ‘year of our Lord’ or ‘after the common Era’ (ACE), they both have the same base beginning time or about ‘0’ AD, or the accepted time of the birth of Jesus.  (no extra charge for this little tidbit – lol).  So, Paul may have been about thirty of age when he started his ministry.

 Consider that Paul/Saul and Jesus lived “normal’ lives leading up to their ministry.  Then, in the eyes of the world, their lives changed dramatically, as did the world.  I wish I could say the same about me.  Welllll, I could say it, but it wouldn’t be true (lol).

Understand that Jesus and Paul led ‘normal’ lives until they were released into their God-given ministry.  Jesus, being God come into this world in the flesh (John 1:1) knew His ministry.  God told Moses that “I AM” sent you (Exod. 3:13).  The apostle John turned to see who was speaking to him and what he saw was like the Son of man who said “ I AM Alpha and Omega …” (read it all Rev. 1:1-18).  And after his encounter with Jesus, Paul discovered the ministry which God had given him.

Now, the prophet Samuel was dedicated to God by his mom as she had been barren and asked for a son.  She promised God that if He gave her a son, she would give him back to God (1 Sam. 1:11, 1:24-27).  And she did, under the care of Eli.  Later, Samuel had his encounter with God and came t know God’s voice (1 Sam. 3:1-10).  Note that three times Samuel thought his mentor, Eli, had called him and it also took Eli three times to realize what was going on so the fourth time God came to him, Samuel said “Speak, for your servant hears You.” (1 Sam. 3:1-10).  Many thoughts (voices) come into our heads yet we, too, have to learn to recognize Father’s voice.

Note that Jesus, Saul and Samuel all had encounters with Father.  Father publicly acknowledge Jesus when He said this is My beloved Son (Matt. 3:17).  Paul on the road to Damascus and Samuel who ran back and forth to Eli before He responded and acknowledged God.

So, “Why am I here?”  Do I have a calling on my life?  How do I know?

These cited examples are shared that you might have an idea how God interacts with us.  May I share how Father has dealt with me.  First of all, no, I’m definitely not comparing myself to Paul but as Paul, I try to emulate the qualities and character of Jesus – abide in His love, the best that I can. 

My story

As a young boy (under 10), I have a vague memory of attending a Presbyterian church a few blocks from the house in which I grew up.  One of my neighbors even took me, occasionally,  to their Catholic church.  There was also a nearby Southern Baptist Church,  to which another neighbor took me with her family.  Between high school and the time I married, I did not attend any church regularly.  My wife and I attended the So. Baptist church for a couple of years then, we moved out of the immediate area and that started our search for another church.  We slipped in and out of a couple different Baptist churches, Presbyterian, and then after our ‘baptism in the Holy Ghost, we attended the Church of God, Assemblies of God and a host of independent Pentecostal churches which included United Pentecostal.  We had moved several times and finally ended up in a town, just at the panhandle in Maryland just a couple of miles short of the Pa. state line.  A priest in a Catholic church in that town, helped my wife in a most6 difficult time so we even attended the Catholic church for a while.  My wife went to be with the Lord in 2005 and, as of this sharing, I’m still in that town. 

As Father was growing me, It seemed as though we had a hard time stabilizing in any specific church yet, several years after my wife’s passing Father introduced me to a Full Gospel, prophetic, church where I still am today.  I’ll be honest, I attended this church for several months when I was thinking about bailing out – again.  Then Father clearly said to me “Buck, this is where I want you!”  No doubt in my mind.   Since that time, Father has continued growing me into a deeper understanding of His Word and my relationship with Him.  I’ve stayed put!

Now, through all those years, even though my relationship with Father hadn’t always been the best.  I had freedom of choice and I exercised it but He always kept a thread about my ankle.     

In September 2014 Father told me to go to Ezekiel 37 verses 1-14, the valley of dry bones.  He said “this is your task to come”.  Then He took me to Jeremiah 1:1-4 and said “I will equip you”.  But, as with Jeremiah and Ezekiel, Father obviously did not want me to go to Israel so He told me that today’s church is in the same boat as Israel was back then.  Full of dry bones an needing help.  Again, Father had given me two specific scriptures and said that they were for me.  Somewhere in that time frame, I don’t remember exactly, a little before or a little after that September, Father told me to look up the meaning of my full name, first, middle and last.  Then He told me to check out the ‘Christian based’ meaning of numbers – my birthday.  He told me that my name and my birthday revealed the qualities of my nature, my natural gifts, talents and abilities which He ‘intended’ for me.

I found several lists of numbers but I focused those claiming a biblical base.  Two lists that I found were and  http://www.gods-kingdom books/secrets-of-time/appendix-e-the-biblical-meanings-of-numbers/.  To give you an idea let’s take a look at three numbers: #1- unity; primacy, new beginnings, oneness of God, #4- creative works and #7- resurrection; Spiritual completeness; Father’s (or Spiritual) perfection.  I suggest to examine several lists on your own and not depend on just one.

Look up your name.  Baby lists, meaning of names, etc. for they can shed light on your name’s ethnic origins and what they mean as well as qualities and characteristics, but again don’t limit yourself to the first list you find.  Check out several. 

As Father told me, this gives you an idea of our God-given gifts, talents and abilities.

I am persuaded that when Father has a specific calling on your life, He will also give you a specific scripture (or more) to back it up.  As I said, the ‘valley of dry bones in Ezekiel and Jerimiah’s calling were two that He showed me.

Once you have gathered the information, its prayer time.  Ask Father to put it all together for you.  ‘What does all this mean to me, Lord?’  He will tell you.  It could be one sentence or maybe even several, but it will a be logical, understandable composition. 

For me, once all this was done, I asked Father for confirmation, that I was truly hearing from Him.  I searched from the end of that September through the end of the year, Dec. 31st  2014,  but no confirmation.  I was getting pretty discouraged so in January I challenged Father was He really calling me.  Spiritually, Father set me down on my keester (bottom) and said “You ask why I haven’t confirmed what I told you in September?”  He then proceeded to show me how through special events I attended, the sermons my pastor preached, what I heard from TV ministers, what I saw in magazines, etc.  then He asked me what were all these people talking about?”  Then I realized and replied ‘what You told me back in September.  I was expecting to get a word from all those prophetic people I was exposed to and I thought surely someone would have said “Buck, the Lord said to tell you ….”  And, of course, no one ever did.  Father then said “How much confirmation do you need?”  He gave me three months worth of confirmation. 

Bottom line is, Father gives us a calling, great or small, and He will confirm it.  Of course we have to listen with both our ears and be aware with our eyes.

You may ask “So, what are you doing about it now?”  In the spring of 2015 Father said to start a blog – and I did.  I’ve continually asked Him for guidance as to what I put in it.  I admit, at first it was probably very boring.  In part, I was establishing who I was but the past several years Father has been more and more pointed in what we have put out.  More specific to His calling on my life.  More specific what He want His children to understand.  These last two years He has been very specific.  And, even today, Father continues to show me how many ministers are focusing on a closer relationship with God AND Father has shown me some have been very pointed in how to accomplish this.  He’s still confirming in me that I, indeed, am still on the right track as I am still learning! 

It’s taken me many years, okay decades, for Father to get where I am now, but He has shown me it is for purpose.  As He has  patiently waited for me to catch up.  I had to reach one level before He could take me to the next.  He has been continually showing deeper things in scripture that He wants me to know and it has been awesome!  Have I arrived yet?  Hardly.  I know that I will continue to grow until He calls me home.   

A word of encouragement.  I have been a ‘federal government’ employee all my life.  I started with the Central Intelligence Agency (CIA), General Services Administration (GSA) and I retired fromr the Food and Drug Administration (FDA).  While at FDA I gave my job to the Lord.  Father blessed me by promoting me from a documents clerk to a ‘contract liaison’ where I trained contract personnel, wrote operational procedures and mediated ‘differences’ between the government and the contractor.  Father elevated me from (on the government scale) a GS5 to a GS12 – with no formal college.  PTL!

We all have a calling on our life – great or small.  Not everyone is going to be a great speaker, singer, or artist, etc.  but God has given each of us a gift, a talent or ability (or all three) within which we can operate.  That calling could be a stock boy, clerk, secretary, supervisor, CEO, whatever.  But whatever God calls us into we should always do with all our heart as if we are doing it or our Lord.  Because we are.  In whatever ‘job’ we function, our beginning prayer should always be “Lord, I give this job to You.  Help me to be the best that I can be while I am here.”

Why am I here?  Ask the Lord, He will show you.  Then pursue whatever that calling may be with all your heart as you live for and in Jesus Christ.